Roll the Dice

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if you’re going to try, go all the way.
otherwise, don’t even start.

if you’re going to try, go all the way.
this could mean losing
girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs
and maybe your mind.

go all the way

it could mean not eating for 3 or 4 days.
it could mean freezing on a park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.

isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your endurance
of how much you really want to do it.
and you’ll do it
despite rejection and the worst odds
and it will be better than anything else you can imagine.

if you’re going to try,
go all the way.

there is no other feeling like that.
you will be alone with the gods
and the nights will flame with fire.

do it, do it, do it
do it

all the way … all the way

you will ride life straight to perfect laughter,
its the only good fight there is.

– Charles Bukowski

Progress Over Perfection

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Our lives are filled with any number of journeys that we embark to try and make ourselves better. Maybe it’s going to college. Maybe it’s trying to lose weight and get in shape. It could be learning a new skill or talent. As with any journey worth taking, along the way there are going to be times when we mess up. When we make mistakes or backslide into bad habits.

Maybe we don’t do as well on a test as we were hoping or we have a bad week where we eat a lot and don’t get to do our normal workout. It’s all a part of the process. There was never a best-selling book where the story goes “They headed out, and then they got there, the end!”. We should expect that there are going to be challenges along the way.

For me, the fault comes when things don’t meet my expectations and I begin to lose motivation. I expect perfection and I have incredibly high standards for myself. It’s too easy to spiral when things don’t go the way you want them to and to give up on everything you have worked on. It’s a fool’s approach, because nothing will ever be perfect. We’re humans, not robots. It’s practically a part of the deal that we are going to eventually make a mess of things.

When things go wrong and start to get away from you, instead of thinking about where it fell short or where you made a mistake, think about how far you have come from where you were when you started out. If the journey was important enough for you to start on it, it’s important enough for you to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep going when it goes awry. Don’t throw it away and have to start over again. Hold on to the reality of your progress over the dream of perfection.

Comfort

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Today I want to take a moment and appreciate the simple comforts in my life. I’m incredibly lucky that I have the luxury of doing a site like this where I get the chance to take a step back once a day and think about what makes life great and share it with others. I can only do that because of the comforts that life has afforded me.

I live close by to any of the basic needs I’d want and a short commute away from where I work. The biggest worry about food I have is figuring out what I want to eat. I have access to the internet, a limitless depository of knowledge and entertainment. I have shelter and transportation. I have good friends and a great family.

All too often in life we get hung up on our needs and wants. We think about what we don’t have and what we need to do to get it. We spend so much time being unsatisfied and longing for something else, something we think is more. It’s good to reset every now and then and appreciate what you do have in life that you take for granted after a while.

To me, when you appreciate what you have, when you add to it you build up, you make the whole a better thing. If you only focus on the want or the need and forget the good things you have, when you add something it’s like tossing it into a hole, an empty foundation. The want is still there, and you keep chasing other things when what you were looking for is what you had all along.

Fear of Living

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“What is a fear of living? It’s being preeminently afraid of dying. It is not doing what you came here to do, out of timidity and spinelessness. The antidote is to take full responsibility for yourself – for the time you take up and the space you occupy. If you don’t know what you’re here to do, then just do some good.”

– Maya Angelou

I’m Bored

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“I’m bored’ is a useless thing to say. I mean, you live in a great, big, vast world that you’ve seen none percent of.

Even the inside of your own mind is endless; it goes on forever, inwardly, do you understand?

The fact that you’re alive is amazing … so you don’t get to say ‘I’m bored.”

– Louis C.K.

The Trip Back

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Train yourself to give everything you have in to what you do. Don’t hold back.  Push yourself to your limits and trust that your brain and your body will find the strength within you that you need to get you through. The best way to grow and get better is by pushing yourself further and further than you thought possible. Don’t save anything for the trip back.

Level Up

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It’s so easy in today’s day and age to fall into the trap of false reality. We can slip into a world of virtual reality where we are afforded the opportunity to be an alternate version of ourselves that embodies the epitome of what we would like to be. This is fine, as a temporary escape. It’s nice to be someone else for a while and stepping outside yourself can make you think in a different way and help you grow.

The danger lies when you get immersed in the virtual world. It’s a world constructed to give you just enough of a reward to keep you hooked and coming back and paying for more. There is a bizarre satisfaction in working on the virtual character. There is a skinner box-like reward system that rewards you incrementally for keeping going that can’t be mirrored in real life.

At the end of the day though, none of this is tangible. If the virtual would that you invested in disappeared tomorrow then you would have nothing to show for it. The character that you “leveled up” would be gone and you would be no better off in the real world than when you started. You could even be feasibly worse.

There is no virtual accomplishment worth your health. There is nothing worth sacrificing to achieve. Far better to spend the time you would invest on an avatar on the only thing you will always be invested in, yourself. Better to spend your time reading and learning in reality. Better to learn and master skills in real life than mastering abilities in a virtual realm. The skills you learn in real life will always be with you. False reality is a button click away from being deleted forever.

Impress Yourself

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Live your life to impress yourself. Don’t rely on other people to give you validation or depend on them to give you accolades when you achieve something you know is impressive to you. They may shower you with praise from time to time but their rain clouds will roll on. People are too often worrying about what’s playing in the next episode of their own LifeShow™ to pay much attention to what is going on around them. Don’t let that cheapen your accomplishments. Be impressed and take pride in the goals you accomplish. Let the good feelings come from within. That’s a well that won’t run dry.

Happy Father’s Day

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Today being Father’s Day, I want to take a moment and appreciate my own Dad. I was blessed to be born to two tremendous parents. I had the best role model anyone could ever ask for in my father. I think more so as an adult than when I was a kid, my father is my hero. He is an incredible man and has been such a big factor in who I am today.

My dad taught me the value of working hard and doing the right thing when you have to make a choice simply because it is the right thing to. I’ve watched my dad work jobs that he hated. Jobs that he did not want to do. But each and every time he went to work he gave it his all. He would always do the best job that he could because it was the right thing do. Someone gave him an opportunity to have a paying job, and in return for being able to pay his rent, feed and buy clothes for me and my sisters, keep the lights on and everything else that goes into being a parent with responsibilities, my dad would work as hard as he could and do the best job that he was able, regardless of the job he was working at.

He’s someone who has touched the lives of the people that he worked with or who worked for him. I had the rare opportunity to work with people who once worked with my dad, and the way they spoke about him blew me away. I got to see my dad through the eyes of other people and see how much he meant to them. There are people walking around who are better just from having known my dad, and that was a really cool thing for me to get to see.

I’ve gotten to see my dad in his element, doing something he loves. I have had the opportunity to do Civil War living histories with him and camp out on battlefields. For all the times that I saw him stoically working away at a job that he was not in to, I have also seem him do something that he loves doing and is passionate about. I have seen him surrounded by his friends and completely at ease, enjoying life.

He’s is an interesting guy. On the outside he is a dad like most, quiet and not very open about his feelings. It took me a while to understand him better. Things would come through like how he would interact with our animals that I would see his true feelings. He was always better at expressing affection with furry friends than with other humans. But I came to understand that the way he was with our pets is the way he felt about me and my sisters, he just didn’t know how to show it.

I grew up watching my dad sacrifice things over and over and over again for the good of his family. As a little kid I watched my dad go on the road and have to be away from his family for extended periods to be able to pay the bills. Later, I saw my dad work nights and come home and stay awake long enough to see me and my sisters off to school. When I played sports he would always come to my games to see me play.

Knowing him better later in life, I can only imagine the stress he went through trying to hold it together at time. It wasn’t easy. But my dad taught me the importance of keeping outwardly calm and not letting the world and the people that are looking up to you know how bad it is. I learned about being dependable, someone that people can count on, no matter what you have going on personally. He sacrificed so much for so long for the good of others. That’s the most important thing of all I learned from him, what love really is. That you do all of that for the people you love without begrudging the world a thing. I love my dad and am incredibly proud of him, and I hope that I will be half the man he is when I have a family one day.