Invincible Summer

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“But in order to keep justice from shriveling up like a beautiful orange fruit containing nothing but a bitter, dry pulp, I discovered once more at Tipasa that one must keep intact in oneself a freshness, a cool wellspring of joy, love the day that escapes injustice, and return to combat having won that light. Here I recaptured the former beauty, a young sky, and I measured my luck, realizing at last that in the worst years of our madness the memory of that sky had never left me. This was what in the end had kept me from despairing. I had always known that the ruins of Tipasa were younger than our new constructions or our bomb damage. There the world began over again every day in an ever new light. O light! This is the cry of all the characters of ancient drama brought face to face with their fate. This last resort was ours, too, and I knew it now. In the middle of winter I at last discovered that there was in me an invincible summer.”

– Albert Camus – Return to Tipasa

Work

“But if you’re blocking me
I will soon defeat you
build a bridge above you
Or I’ll tunnel underneath you
I will eat you and excrete you and I’ll feed you to the flowers
If I need to I will go right through you and absorb your powers
I put in hour after hour let’s be crystal clear
I’ll gonna get there if it takes a day or fifty years
I finger bang my fears
I’ll fucking punch a dragon
Even with the himalayas in my way it’s gonna happen
Waiting doesn’t work, and praying may not come through
And hoping doesn’t work. So I will be the one to (work)”

Watsky – Moral of the Story

Roll the Dice

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if you’re going to try, go all the way.
otherwise, don’t even start.

if you’re going to try, go all the way.
this could mean losing
girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs
and maybe your mind.

go all the way

it could mean not eating for 3 or 4 days.
it could mean freezing on a park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.

isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your endurance
of how much you really want to do it.
and you’ll do it
despite rejection and the worst odds
and it will be better than anything else you can imagine.

if you’re going to try,
go all the way.

there is no other feeling like that.
you will be alone with the gods
and the nights will flame with fire.

do it, do it, do it
do it

all the way … all the way

you will ride life straight to perfect laughter,
its the only good fight there is.

– Charles Bukowski

Progress Over Perfection

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Our lives are filled with any number of journeys that we embark to try and make ourselves better. Maybe it’s going to college. Maybe it’s trying to lose weight and get in shape. It could be learning a new skill or talent. As with any journey worth taking, along the way there are going to be times when we mess up. When we make mistakes or backslide into bad habits.

Maybe we don’t do as well on a test as we were hoping or we have a bad week where we eat a lot and don’t get to do our normal workout. It’s all a part of the process. There was never a best-selling book where the story goes “They headed out, and then they got there, the end!”. We should expect that there are going to be challenges along the way.

For me, the fault comes when things don’t meet my expectations and I begin to lose motivation. I expect perfection and I have incredibly high standards for myself. It’s too easy to spiral when things don’t go the way you want them to and to give up on everything you have worked on. It’s a fool’s approach, because nothing will ever be perfect. We’re humans, not robots. It’s practically a part of the deal that we are going to eventually make a mess of things.

When things go wrong and start to get away from you, instead of thinking about where it fell short or where you made a mistake, think about how far you have come from where you were when you started out. If the journey was important enough for you to start on it, it’s important enough for you to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep going when it goes awry. Don’t throw it away and have to start over again. Hold on to the reality of your progress over the dream of perfection.

Comfort

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Today I want to take a moment and appreciate the simple comforts in my life. I’m incredibly lucky that I have the luxury of doing a site like this where I get the chance to take a step back once a day and think about what makes life great and share it with others. I can only do that because of the comforts that life has afforded me.

I live close by to any of the basic needs I’d want and a short commute away from where I work. The biggest worry about food I have is figuring out what I want to eat. I have access to the internet, a limitless depository of knowledge and entertainment. I have shelter and transportation. I have good friends and a great family.

All too often in life we get hung up on our needs and wants. We think about what we don’t have and what we need to do to get it. We spend so much time being unsatisfied and longing for something else, something we think is more. It’s good to reset every now and then and appreciate what you do have in life that you take for granted after a while.

To me, when you appreciate what you have, when you add to it you build up, you make the whole a better thing. If you only focus on the want or the need and forget the good things you have, when you add something it’s like tossing it into a hole, an empty foundation. The want is still there, and you keep chasing other things when what you were looking for is what you had all along.

Fear of Living

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“What is a fear of living? It’s being preeminently afraid of dying. It is not doing what you came here to do, out of timidity and spinelessness. The antidote is to take full responsibility for yourself – for the time you take up and the space you occupy. If you don’t know what you’re here to do, then just do some good.”

– Maya Angelou

I’m Bored

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“I’m bored’ is a useless thing to say. I mean, you live in a great, big, vast world that you’ve seen none percent of.

Even the inside of your own mind is endless; it goes on forever, inwardly, do you understand?

The fact that you’re alive is amazing … so you don’t get to say ‘I’m bored.”

– Louis C.K.

The Trip Back

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Train yourself to give everything you have in to what you do. Don’t hold back.  Push yourself to your limits and trust that your brain and your body will find the strength within you that you need to get you through. The best way to grow and get better is by pushing yourself further and further than you thought possible. Don’t save anything for the trip back.

Level Up

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It’s so easy in today’s day and age to fall into the trap of false reality. We can slip into a world of virtual reality where we are afforded the opportunity to be an alternate version of ourselves that embodies the epitome of what we would like to be. This is fine, as a temporary escape. It’s nice to be someone else for a while and stepping outside yourself can make you think in a different way and help you grow.

The danger lies when you get immersed in the virtual world. It’s a world constructed to give you just enough of a reward to keep you hooked and coming back and paying for more. There is a bizarre satisfaction in working on the virtual character. There is a skinner box-like reward system that rewards you incrementally for keeping going that can’t be mirrored in real life.

At the end of the day though, none of this is tangible. If the virtual would that you invested in disappeared tomorrow then you would have nothing to show for it. The character that you “leveled up” would be gone and you would be no better off in the real world than when you started. You could even be feasibly worse.

There is no virtual accomplishment worth your health. There is nothing worth sacrificing to achieve. Far better to spend the time you would invest on an avatar on the only thing you will always be invested in, yourself. Better to spend your time reading and learning in reality. Better to learn and master skills in real life than mastering abilities in a virtual realm. The skills you learn in real life will always be with you. False reality is a button click away from being deleted forever.